I have this account in triond.com. This site is like tumblr.com wherein you can put all your stuffs you wanted to share to others like pictures, videos, blogs and etc. I've been a member in it for about a year and 2 months now, I guess.
I don't visit it that much because it's not that sociable to me; to think that I don't have a friend on that site and I just posted all my woks there and nothing else. So after a long time, I decided to check my account there. Seeing my posts before makes me think of the past. Until this~
You noticed that link above this blog? yeah~ that highlighted words there!
So that was a blog a year ago when I celebrated my 17th birthday. I just noticed that I celebrated it with "JUST" 2 person and I feel so contented that day. And now, I feel like crying, seriously. This year, I know you guys are much updated on how I celebrated my 18th birthday. Some of my mates came here to celebrate with me, yet I still felt the emptiness. They seemed so happy, I hope but me, I am there for them to cheer me up but still, I am unhappy. It's not that I don't appreciate their efforts on being here, but there's a hole in me that I do not know who can fill that up or to cover it for me.
So there, those two people are really close to my heart as what I also wrote on that blog. And right now, I really missed them, like SO MUCH! and BIG TIME~ Spending time with them on my 17th birthday made me OH! SO HAPPY.. I now came up of the theory that they are the ones missing in my life right now. (ang emo ko!!!pero eto talaga nararamadaman ko ngayon ee) That they are the ones who will complete me. I don't know but I know the fact that I value my friends over anything, as in ANYTHING!!! And now that I somehow had been an outcast to them, (maybe am the only one thinking on this perspective) I missed those silly times we shared, those nonsense thoughts we talked about, and EVERYTHING!!! every times we had are treasures for me. How I wish we did not ended like this. How I wish that we're still in good terms. Hai~ you guys know who I am talking about.
I miss you guys~ seriously, as in from the bottom of my lonely heart. Now I envy every moment I see you smile, laugh so hard and get sad and exhausted together. How I wish I am there on those moments, but I can't. Not that I don't want to but that I am afraid. Afraid that you will or might reject me. I hope everything will get fixed as soon as possible.